I remember reading on many photographer blogs a couple of years ago that Christmas season was insane.
I didn't know what they meant.
I mean insane? Really?
Doesn't that sound a little dramatic?
You know me: I shy away from drama....Seriously! Why are you laughing?
Well, let me tell you, this Christmas season has been INSANE.
And when I say insane I mean:
So insane that our tree isn't up.
So insane that I haven't paid our car insurance bill that was due last Friday.
{Don't tell Gary!}
So insane that I have the Titanic theme song on loop and have listened to it no less than 152 times tonight....
I have loved some parts of the insanity.
Many parts to be truthful.
LOVED the Families.
Loved the Babies.
Loved the Children.
Loved the Santas
and the Parties
and the Wonder of the Season.
Weird capitalization because I fancy myself some sort of poet. Just go along with my insanity today, K?
It is a little stressful though.
Like, so stressful I might or might not have started crying for no reason at all in the middle of the grocery store on Wednesday.
I am not sure if it was picture stress
or work stress
or the fact that the cat food cost as much as the human food...
Last night I fell into bed at 2:35 AM
Thank God it did not collapse!
As I set the alarm for 5:30 I reflected on the day. And then I cried some more. I haven't been a nice Mom to Kaish at all lately. I haven't been nice to my co workers. Or the clerk at the market. Or anyone really.
I have been terribly grumpy and irritable.
Snippy to the max.
Every second I am editing.
Or shooting.
Or driving Kaish somewhere to be babysat so I can shoot.
I miss him.
I miss my kid.
All the kids I am shooting are perfectly wonderful.
I love their smiles and their little ideas and questions.
I love my job.
I just miss my own kid.
My own wonderfully fantastic and quirky child.
And I miss you.
Blogging is the best outlet.
Thank you for hanging around.
I am sorry I have abandoned you lately.
Don't worry. I promise to be back soon with tons of beautiful family pictures and lots of love.
Love, Snippy Becky who now has I Will Always Love You by Whitney Houston playing instead of Celine Deon's Titanic song. Try not to be impressed!
37 comments:
You are so sweet, B...and I hope things slow down so you can just cuddle that boy of yours by the Christmas tree!
Beautiful pictures!! I especially love the bokeh and the ones of the kitty cat.
I'm sorry that you are so stressed. Try to find some time to relax. Whether it be 30 minutes one afternoon. It should make you feel better!
Having too much photography work makes me snippy too. I'm trying to cut back, because I hate it when it doesn't feel fun anymore. But your photos are SO gorgeous. I can see why you're busy!
I have this banner on my wall that says "gnade" which is German for grace. It reminds me when I have days like you've had that I'm covered by grace. Don't forget to give yourself a little grace in the midst of the insanity. :)
Hang in there!!!!
Oh girly, you have some good taste in voices! I would be way too distracted to do anything if I listened to them for background music.
Glad you are getting so many opportunities! It should quiet down for you soon. Lucky, lucky people. :-)
I hope the stress leaves....and you can enjoy LIFE...enjoy Christmas!!!!!!!
Lovely photos. :)
nice...lovely pics...and this can be a crazy season so def make time to be with your own...soon enough you cna breath again...
I get you...OH how I get you!!! I just realized last night that for the first time since October I'm caught up on editing. And it feels weird. I keep wondering what I'm missing. :)
Your pictures are gorgeous, as always.
I love visiting here. You are so nice.
--Signed,
Snippy? Are you kidding me? Girl, you couldn't even Snip in my league.
love you girlie. stress makes everyone mean. just the facts. get that tree up!
I'm having the same kind of season! We'll all catch up after Christmas.
Hope that next week will be a better week for you and you will be less stressed.
yep!!! Christmas is crazy if ya shoot people for a living.. If it is any help.. I offer all my Christmas clients a discount starting in September to book early...usually what happens is that.. they send me new people so I still end up crying in the middle of the night.. But I am thankful for every single one.. cause January can be a bit quiet for a photog
gorgeous photos and words!
you have an eye candy blog.
happy weekend!
Dear Cranky, mean rotten Becky,
Don't worry we love you anyway ~ So does your family. especially Gary, dad, your mom, sister, brother ALL THOSE beautiful babies:) and Kaishon ~ Who you are a FABULOUS mother too! and don't you forget it or else!!! You truly are he best!
Just so you know: what goes on the blog stays on the blog and I would NEVER say anything about the insurance. Your secret is safe with me. also, I just remembered I forgot to pay my husbands business insurance...YICKS!!!! I better get off the computer and get it done. before he kills me. :) Yicks!
xoxo
You are funny and so honest. I think we all go through times like that.
Hope things slow down so you can get some quality time with your boy.
I hope you get a break soon! I know you love what you do (and are ARE so good at it) but we all need down time. Happy Holidays!! xo
Fabulous friday work!! Happy Holidays!
Hang in there, Becky! You are fantastic at everything you do, just breath and ride the wave that is life. ENjoy your holidays too!!
INSANE: now your speaking my language =0) loved this post! Life may be crazy but I wouldn't change a thing and i'm sure you wouldn't either=0)
Welcome to the Human Race, Becky! This can be an INSANE time of year alright! But you will manage.....you're listening to Whitney!!!!! Have a great week, you will make it!
Jim
Great shots...take a deep breath....Tis the season!
that kitty on the stairs...so cuteeee!
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oh dear. of course you're busy. because you're talented, fun, generous, and love to say "yes!" here, let me plant some new mantras for you to keep in the back of your mind: "I would be delighted to take pictures for you. I'm booked out for this month. How is the 3rd week of January for you ...?" (you say this "I'm booked out" even if that means you only take 2 bookings per month. decide how much you really want to be working on top of your full time job and ONLY accept that many sessions per month). It's nice to be in demand ;-). Go give Kaish and huge hug and enjoy him this weekend! :-D
I am sorry that things are insane for you. I miss you! I am hoping you find some peace so you can enjoy this special season with your family! ((HUGS))
insane seasons make us mean.
they just do.
thank God our children and our husbands and our friends are quick to forgive.
hope you get that tree up this weekend, but if you don't, life will go on.
love all the pictures you captured in this post.
I totally understand where you're coming from! Love your bokeh photo!
Oh sweet Becky, life sometimes is so crazy. And I feel ya having two jobs. I imagine it being even harder while being a mommy to someone.
Hope you have time to enjoy him very soon. Love ya! xxx
And your pictures are stunning.
I completely understand! We've had a month of sickness...I just got the tree up on Wednesday....because my husband had to stay home with the stomach flu...so when he had a bit more colour, I asked him to bring it in for us. And I had a meltdown.....and a good friend to listen. And now she calls me everyday to find out what I'm thankful for....and I HAVE to think of something (and there are so many things....when I try not to be overwhelmed and look for them!). Hugs to you!
I hope this week is better and you can go back to being your normal self and see your baby more....! Until then just breathe...
When our family gets together for Christmas, "insane" describes it perfectly.
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beautiful shots. hope things settle down for you soon!
Oh Becky, I send you hugs and I'll be keeping you in my prayers, you are such a wonderful mom, I often hear the instructors at the gym ask "Who can't wait for their kids to go back to school?" It breaks my heart that a lot of women cheer and laugh about it, it's not funny to me. I've been having such a hard time too, the darn PMS has really hit me hard lately and I haven't been very nice to people, to my son, or to God, but thankfully that time is over and I'm definitely going to make a doctor's appointment to get that taken care of, I'm tired of being a big meany to my son just because I'm pmsing. Anyways, I hope that as you read this you are starting to feel better. =)
awwww... becky... (((hugs))) i am praying for you tonight... that God will give you rest, refreshment, peace, a time of quiet and stillness... sometimes seasons of any kind can be crazy. just remember, this is a season, it will pass.
i hope you are reading this with kaish and gary by your side, feet propped up by a warm fire, and enjoying the moment.
oh this post made me smile--glad you can find the humor in the insanity and hope it slows down a bit and you can enjoy the christmas/new years week coming up! thanks for linking up
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